So there’s this girl I met way back (I was 4 and she was 5). We had the whole infancy relationship going on for a bout a year. Then our families moved and I never saw her again, although I kept thinking about her. Well, I’m living abroad now, and in 07 I went home on a break and I looked for her. Someone told me she got married and my whole world crashed. Well, I thought I had moved on, but in December 08 I when home again, out of sheer luck, her brother was passing by my street and I recognized him. I asked and he told me she was never married. Well, I wouldn’t let her slip again so I started flirting with her, and on new year’s eve I told her how I felt. She acted kinda cold. When I got home she called to say she wasn’t sure what was going on, but she had feelings for me unlike anything she knew. I knew we wouldn’t be together for long cause I had to go back to school the next day, but we still started dating. Both of us broke up with our girl/boyfriends and I knew from that moment that I loved her (cause my other girl was freaking hot, and she understood, it’s not like I hurt her). She asked me if I had ever loved someone before her, and truthfully I said no, and so did she. Well, this is where it gets bad. She is extremely jealous, to the point where hugging any girl other than my sister is trouble.
We both have access to each other’s email accounts and as she was looking through mine one day, she found a couple of emails to a girl, in 07, and one in December 08, before I found her. As I am always very open with girls, and that one was a very intimate friend of mine (never slept with her, or had a crush for that matter), the word love was all over the emails. It’s true that I love her, but as a friend, and very innocently. Tell that to my beloved and she’ll flip. Well, now she thinks I’ve been playing her, and the says she doesn’t love me anymore, although she still wants to be with me. Funny thing is, with any other girl, I wouldn’t mind not being loved. But I love her so much that now I feel empty even when she tries to please me. I used to be so romantic, and always blow her mind, but now I behave more like I feel sorry for myself. I’m closing up and I’m afraid it’s only gonna drive her away. And it’s a long distance relationship, it’s very easy to mess up and trust is the biggest issue. I lost hers.
I also know she told someone in the past she loved him (which she told me she hadn’t, and me saying that in the past to someone is the reason she stopped loving me), but there’s no point in arguing back, not with a woman. I just need to gain her trust back, which I should not have lost at all, because I never lied to her. I love her and I never lover any other woman before her romantically.
By the way, I’m 21 now, which makes her 22.
Please help a brother in need.
Tags: Boyfriends, brother, email accounts, eve, feelings, Flirting, funny thing, girls, infancy, intimate friend, love, Met, new year, relationship, sheer luck
