Im 23 years old and I just went thru the toughest stage of my life, after been with the most amaizin man for 31/2 years he got killed in a motocycle accident. I took it very hard, since he was and still is the love of my life.. 4 months after his accident i decided to go out and try to smile.. I met someone that almost automatically called my attention, he was unique and very goofy, maybe thats what i needed all this time someone to make me smile.. we met at a bar and we danced all night long, towards the end he asked me for my phone numbers and even though to everyone alse i would say no.. To him i just had to.. After that we kept seen each other and getting to know each other, he had been thru a very bad brake up and i had lost my boyfriend. so in part we were helping eachother out.. after a couple of weeks of us been hanging around, i felt like i was catching feelings and i backed away – i was scared and plus i felt wrong because in my heart i felt like i had to be faithful to my boyfriend. he was catchin feelings for me to but since i backed off, he felt like he had to as well to not get hurt..

9 months have been since i last seen him – and i cant stop thinkin about him! i feel like we left somethin that could of been special, and at the same time i feel much better now and i understand that i have to move on and be happy.. the problem is i dnt know how to get to him.. i dont want to scare him off. since he problaly thinks i will reject him again. we have friends in common but we never hang around. Lately i cant have him off my mind and i dnt knw if the power of the mind is great but last week.. he called my best friend and after a long conversation with her. he finally asked her about me.. "tell her i said hi" to alot of people thats nothin but to me is.. "he is thinkin about me, he didnt have to ask"

Now the question is, what should i do?

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