I came home from work and my wife of 19 years was gone. She didn’t take much except some clothes and a few things. She left a lengthy note which was dated a few weeks ago telling me that she’s in love with someone else and is pregnant with his child. She says she’s sorry but she hasn’t loved me for years and it’s all been a show until the girls grew up. She says she’s not coming back and I’ll get divorce papers in the mail. I called her work and her boss said she gave her notice a couple of weeks ago and she’s been gone for a week.

I feel like I’m going to throw up. Our twin 18 year old girls are away at college and don’t know she’s gone yet. I don’t know what to say to them.

I feel like just driving off a bridge. I feel like drinking until I pass out. I feel like emptying my bank account and spending it on hookers or just trying to pick up some girl at a bar and screw her. I just want to feel something good. I can barely feel anything except agony.

I did virtually nothing at work today but fight back tears and hope nobody came by my desk or talked to me.

I don’t know why this happened. I loved her to death. She was everything to me. We laughed and spent wonderful time together. We almost never fought, we talked, flirted, went out dancing just like we did 20 years ago and had a wonderful time… all the time. She always had a huge smile, ran to me when I came home, and did everything I thought a loving wife did.

How could I ever love again? I can’t tell the difference between someone who loves me and someone who doesn’t. Can one of you ladies in here explain to me how someone could masquerade as a loving wife for so many years and never give me a clue that she was unhappy? Why wouldn’t she just tell me she wasn’t happy and then maybe I could have fixed whatever was wrong.

Tags: 18 year old girls, 19 years, agony, boss, bridge, clothes, Clue, desk, divorce papers, hookers, love, loving wife, mail, masquerade, Screw, smile, wonderful time

My boyfriend and i broke up about a month ago and i have been so sad since then. I thought i didn’t like him that much anymore until i realized i still have feelings for him. He is in my french class at school and it’s hard not to look at him too much. He still looks at me sometimes and started talking to me about a week ago. I really want him back… but i have no clue how! please help!

Tags: Clue, Ex Boyfriend, feelings, french class

I’m trying and trying to get over how my ex treated so bad at the end. It’s just killing me and feels like my heart is repeatedly stubbed. I have no clue what I have done to deserve all this. I had never betrayed him or been mean. I loved him so much. I tried to go out with friends, started new things and meeting a counselor…. positive stuff I could think of. But open up the wound from the recent past at counseling later brought me flashbacks and I’m spending so much time crying on bed. I just want to live my life again, but all the fear, anxiety, and loneliness are just squeezing my chest. Do you think someday this will end and I can trust guys again?

Tags: Clue, counseling, Counselor, fear anxiety, flashbacks, heart, loneliness

so im trying to start writing
ive written stuff before but i dont normally like what i write…so i need opinions…and yes i know there are silly little love poems…oh and i also dont have names so any suggestions???

Poem one:

its all so confusing to know just how to feel

im lost in so many emotions ive forgotten witch ones are real.

im left here standing not knowing what to do.

ive become a home to confusion,
and im left without a clue.

my heart and mind are in a battel,
and i know not who will win.

ive come so far i cant face being broken again

you say that wont happen,
and nothing will change.

but i cant help but wonder
if all guys are really are the same

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Poem 2:

have you known how hard ive fallen,
have i dropped enough clues.

do you know that every passing day
the only thing i think of is you.

i dont want it to be like this,
i wish i hadnt gone head over heels.

is this it?
is this how?
true love really feels.

but your not mine,and im not yours.

its a sad fact,that i wish wasnt true.

all i want is to be in you arms.
all i want is to be with you..

so what ya think im not finished really but im getting stuck..
and help would be appreciated

Tags: 101 Names, battel, Clue, confusion, emotions, head over heels, heart, heart and mind, love poems, poem 2, sad fact, Start Writing, true love, witch

I only write love poems depending on my emotions (sad,happy etc)

Someday…

I have only love you in my mind
I felt this unexplainable feeling
Which is sure hard to find

But one day, one day
A promise is kept for you
I have to confess someday
To tell you that "I love you"

Every moment i see you
It takes my breath away
Although you hav’nt got a clue

I always imagine you are mine
,holding hand among the sunset
Always sending chills down my spine
It’s all fantasies i will never forget…

I can never be with you
Even how much hard I try
It will never come true
Just thinking of it, it always make me cry,,,,

By Kyle A…

I wrote this when i was 12 Im 13 already.. so it might not be good…
what do you think? should i keep doing this?
hey guys should i post another one then?

Tags: chills, Clue, emotions, fantasies, hey guys, love poem, love poems, spine, sunset