I’ve been in a relationship since highschool. She’s actually my first and only girl friend ever.
So we’ve been together for more then 5 Years…
The relationship seems fine and everyday is the same. A few stupid fights here N there, but we get along great most of the time, and I love her. All is good.
But recently my emotions are getting to me. My friends are hooking up with girls that they’ve had crushes on, people are getting married, and other friends are just living the single life up. They come over and hang out and my guy friends bring over just amazingly beautiful girls! Making out in front of me and I just can’t help but envy them. Being young wild and free, but I’m feeling locked down. As if I’m married and old…we as a couple don’t go out enough, don’t make love ever, and she always has to bust in the room and spew negativity. I love her, but she’s so lazy and full of drama.

She’s gained alot of weight since we’ve been together, which seems to make thing worse. She’s gotta be 250 now!?? I’m not shallow and actually like thicker built women, but I honestly don’t feel like ive ever been with a real woman ever!!! My girl is so out of touch and uninterested in me, it’s like I’m lonley.

I’m kinda a clean cut nice guy and girls always smile and say I’m really cute and a great guy, but them go home with one of my dweeby friends and bang.

I’m just having that feeling of regret and wondering if I’m doing the right thing and keeping this relationship going when deep deep down Im jealous of my friends all doing what they really want to do and dating girls and being young and wild.

I just feel lost….anyone know what I mean… Advice?

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we’re 23. we were together for 18 months and we were very serious. i mean, we were practically engaged to be engaged. she broke up with me about a month ago and it has been very hard on me, hardest than any other break up by far. she said i was too jealous and didn’t trust her just because i wasn’t cool with her texting this guy till 3 AM that she met a few months ago. for some reason, we agreed to try to remain friends for us but also because she bought me a dog, so for the dog too. well, being friends hasn’t worked out too well. there are just too many emotions, mostly because i miss her and now i feel she has changed almost completely. she’s been a ***** to me lately too. we’re constantly arguing. i’m constantly asking her and wondering what is going on between her and the guy she was texting till 3 AM while we were together because now there sadly seems to be something going on, even its its purely physical because imagining her having sex with another guy kills me inside. she claims he had nothing to do with our break up though. i just don’t think i can talk to her or be friends with her at least any time soon, even if that means my dog can’t see her "mom" anymore (don’t think my ex cares anymore anyway). i feel like i’ve made no progress getting over her, but her being a complete ***** to me this week has started to push me away. i know whats best for me, i know i deserve better now, i know i should stop talking to her, but its really hard. i’m still thinking about her a lot, wanting to talk to her, constantly being reminded of her throughout my day, and so on. what can i do to really get over her?

Tags: Advice, being friends, emotions, ex girlfriend, having sex, mom

I am so hurt at the moment. I am one of those people who refuses to listen to herself. I have been hurt for a few days now. been drinking 4 days in a row, I have finally come to grips that it is hurting and it won’t go away. Every time i close my eyes i see him. Everythign reminds me of him. EVERYTHING. I see him everyday. I am friends with his friends. I feel liek there is a constant LUMP in my throat or heart. It hurts. I cant even use word to describe it. NO I will not go for a rebound. I can’t even concentrate with any other relationships at the moment. I have been asked out 2 times in these couple of days and I have rejected them as i dont wanna use anyone f0or a rebound. HOW DO I GET OVER HIM? Please. I have work. I have a social life, but it is begining to fall to pieces.

I don’t self harm, dont worry. I do eat right and excerise right.

Ive tried venting to friends, writing down my emotions, crying. I CANT. Im crying right now. tears just come out. I cant think. Its hurts.HELP
I have lost 5kgs in the past week, from worrying. The food goes down but not that well. I have eye bags. I NEED HELP. Please. anything to make this pain go away. PLEASE

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About 5 weeks ago, my boyfriend broke up with me because he couldn’t take the cycle of us fighting each other every week. I couldn’t too, but I was the type to never give up. I was so shocked and emotionally out of control. A week after that, (I know this was a big booboo since I wasn’t emotionally ready yet and I was just afraid he’d start to "forget" me) we met up and I gave him a letter containing my apology, an explanation, the fact that I’m still willing to make it work between us, and asked for another chance. We could try it his way, without rushing the relationship like I did. He gave me a reply a whole week after saying that we were just too different, specifically on how we viewed love and relationships, and he just doesn’t think we’re both what each other wanted – at least at this point in our lives. We just weren’t emotionally equipped to handle each other and it’s unfair if we jump back into another relationship if we’re not ready. He says we both need a lot of growing up to do. "It’s better the way things are now." He said sorry, but that’s what he truly believed.

I replied three days after, thanking him for everything and agreeing with the breakup. I did sincerely mean it. But I’m afraid I made the letter sound as if it was a "goodbye forever" letter. It’s going to be 3 weeks since we haven’t corresponded and in that time, I’ve learned to calm down and evaluate everything again. I came to realize my faults and his. And I’m making a conscious effort to adjust my bad habits too. I think I’m getting to the "anger" part, after which, I know I should start forgiving. I’m giving myself 2 more weeks to settle my emotions down but I’m pretty confident, I’ll be good to go by then.

I’m planning on trying to contact him again, when I’m ready. But I’m a bit apprehensive because I’m not exactly sure what he meant when he said "at least at this point of our lives." Is 1 month too soon for him? How much more time do you think he needs? Also, how do I start approaching him?

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so im trying to start writing
ive written stuff before but i dont normally like what i write…so i need opinions…and yes i know there are silly little love poems…oh and i also dont have names so any suggestions???

Poem one:

its all so confusing to know just how to feel

im lost in so many emotions ive forgotten witch ones are real.

im left here standing not knowing what to do.

ive become a home to confusion,
and im left without a clue.

my heart and mind are in a battel,
and i know not who will win.

ive come so far i cant face being broken again

you say that wont happen,
and nothing will change.

but i cant help but wonder
if all guys are really are the same

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Poem 2:

have you known how hard ive fallen,
have i dropped enough clues.

do you know that every passing day
the only thing i think of is you.

i dont want it to be like this,
i wish i hadnt gone head over heels.

is this it?
is this how?
true love really feels.

but your not mine,and im not yours.

its a sad fact,that i wish wasnt true.

all i want is to be in you arms.
all i want is to be with you..

so what ya think im not finished really but im getting stuck..
and help would be appreciated

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