We’re both in highschool. We dated for about 8 months, but had a thing for a long time before that, and he’s my first love. My ex-boyfriend broke up with me 1 and a half months ago because he said he didn’t feel the same way about me and just wanted to be single, and also because at that time we were arguing a lot. He started drinking a lot now, and using drugs. He used to act like a complete dick to me after the breakup, saying that I was a waste of his time, and that he never loved me, so I told him that until he changed and started acting nice to me, we couldn’t be friends. So now he is nicer to me. Anyway, long story cut short, he phones me sometimes late at night now for no reason.. They’re reaaally long phonecalls sometimes, like 4 hours if they’re late at night. He always sounds sad, but he just says he’s really tired because it’s like 12/1 am when he phones. He usually talks about girls he’s met and stuff, but not really as much anymore, and always questions if I’ve done shit with guys. He always says he’s confused and doesn’t know what makes him happy anymore, and says that he misses being truly happy with someone he cares about. I asked if he missed me then, and he said ‘I do, but you only made me feel like that sometimes because of the arguing (we only started arguing a month before we broke up). We’ve only had one emotional talk about why we broke up, and it just led to apologies, and us telling eachother how much we care about eachother and such. He used to say he was over me, but now he says things like "I still have feelings for you, I havent moved on", and when he said it I responded with "I still love you", but he always tells me I don’t. He also says things like "Maybe in the future we’ll date again, but not now", or he’ll say "I bet you don’t even think or talk about me.." I don’t know, it just seems weird.. And I’ve become kind of interested in his friend, and he’s noticed I’ve started talking to him a lot, and that we gave eachother nicknames, so when I’m on the phone with my ex he bad mouths his friend, saying that his friend says bad things about me, and all the shit he’s done with girls recently. And he commented on the nicknames, and I said "Ahaha, are you jeaaalous?", and all he responded with was "Don’t even flatter yourself."
Like all of these things comming from his mouth, like all the feelings and stuff started from 2 weeks ago. I know this sounds like he just wants to have his cake, but not be monogomous, but do you think he’s sincere and wants me back? I’m so confused..
Tags: Act, Acting, apologies, dick, drugs, feelings, first love, Frie, Friends, girls, late at night, late night, Led, long time, Night Sounds, phonecalls, quot, Sad, Shit, Weird
