My story is long, cut to the chase I have been with a guy for 6 years. 3 years of it was long distance relationship. I loved him and he was my first love as I was his.
about a month and half ago we broke up in agreement. and Here I am. I can not cried,it been 6 month since I last cried ( not really a crying type).I always put everything in me , hold every pressure and problem inside.and I am afraid of shattering , I am afraid of thinking about what has happened. I think It hasn’t sank yet in me ( or may be it has and I am jut holding it down) and I am afraid of ending up in pieces when starting dealing with it. its like carrying a giant hole in me and it hurts. It hurts so bad that I want to puke my guts out. the problem is I am not emotional type. I am so cold and heartless all the time. ( or maybe I just don’t know and don’t like to show emotion)
Please if anyone can come up with something tell me. I really need help. I need to start grieving and move on some how, I think.

Thanks,
G

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