I’ve been separated for over a year from husband, he was recently laid off lost insurance coverage. I have outstanding bill with doctor so he refuses to see me, the emergency room runs the same tests and says go see your doctor- So, what I am asking; Does anyone know of Care Treatment facilities that may treat me? I want to go to work! I think I’ve been given a death sentence with no hope. I’ve also been dating a guy (I’ve had a crush on for 28yrs-Iwas15 the first time I saw his beautiful green eyes-and perfectly chiseled face-but never told anyone until this past November when we crossed paths again-as we have thru the yrs-and he turned around to give me a very warm firm hug and invited me to dinner with his friends-he doesn’t want to believe I am…ill and his people are telling him to drop me because there is "something" wrong with her. I feel like he should too-I have nothing to offer him but pain and misery and loss eventually death in my heart I believe he loves me and would do anything he could to help IF there IS any help out there) I have three children 22,11,8-&5yr old granddaughter, that I have been in so much pain and NO energy But my mind says GO!!! so much to say and so many questions-I have looked up pancrepancreatic I’ve seen some surgical precedures and have heard one doctor say if they get to it too late the surguries will not prolong life expectancy-only removal of the painful dead cells that block the ducts that secrete the enzymes, but with no car,job, money, insurance All I have is God. and I’ve been a terrible Christian, making promises with all good intent and falling short every time one thing or another I do not deserve a miraculous healing from God but I do need One (or about a million little miracles) to pull something together so my son can have a chance at life-he is mamas’ "BOY" he loves his mom and wants to go with me when I go-He can play piano, drums, guitar and praises God-Loves Jesus but the friends he has do not go to church my estranged husband refused to pray with me or surrender his lustful greed (I"LL just stop there) he was not a positive influence for either of us, I have regrets I got away last year-because I wanted to take one more chance at having a good life and pursue happiness less hatred around me more happy -doesn’t look like that is going to happen. How can I find out if anyone has an insurance policy on me? I am curious as to how from sept to now I am in so much pain-agony words cannot describe-I am sorry I am not practiced at the art of short n sweet and keep emotion out of it-I have no clue where to turn, the hospital told me to see my doctor, the doctor wants his money (I don’t blame him I just need to get to work so I can pay him

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There was a woman in my life whom I loved deeply.

She was and is still everything to me. I had pursued her for months before we actually started dating on that fateful 4th of July, in 2007. It all started at a Rangers baseball game. They were playing the Angels that night, and little did I know that the fireworks at the ballpark, were nothing compared to what would happen once we got home. We went into that stadium as friends, but left as a couple. The drive home that night took way too long, and once inside the house, we went straight into the bedroom. That night I felt like I had one the lottery. From her flowing brown hair, to her deep green eyes, she had me captivated. Her smile was contagious, and I had never before felt security like I did in her arms. I was on a meager salary at the time, so my ring was not the most substantial declaration of my love, but it was all I could afford. It was a starry Texas night, when I proposed to her in my Chevy truck. Without hesitation, she said yes. My heart jumped, and I knew without a doubt that she was the one that I had been waiting all these years for. Everything was great, including the sex, and we conceived a child in August. Her name was to be Irelynn. We had plans for a California wedding within the next six months, and for a few months to follow, I continued to be on top of the world… nothing could ruin my life now. But, I was mistaken. One morning it all changed. She walked out of the house, my life… and my heart broke. For a solid year, I begged, pleaded, and gave into anything that might offer a chance of bringing us back together. There were a few glimmers of hope over he past year and a half, but now I think I may have finally given up. From what I hear, she is engaged to some guy that inherited a ton of money, and can offer her more than I could have at the time, and is a stay at home mom. The sad thing is, that even after her betrayal, and knowing all the facts… I would without a doubt, welcome her back with open arms, as I still love her as much today, as I did a year and a half ago.

Now here is the weird part; I found out that she calls a friend of mine about every three weeks to check on my life… and I have discovered that she checks in on my facebook page, and my myspace page.

My heart needs to heal. I want to be able to move on… But I can’t. I still feel that there is a chance that she might come back. Help…

So what do you think?

Can you offer me any advice?

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