Hi,
I was very close to a friend, became mad about him and was rejected badly!
We stayed friends for 5 years, then he decided he was interested we went out for a while but months later went on hols with friends where i found out he didnt really have those feelings at all. We fell out for a year.
Then we became friends again, moved in together as i needed a new tenant and he needed to move out, and its been brilliant. We live together very well, it works well for both of us.
But we’ve never brought anyone else home. And i know if he ever did, as much as i’d like to think i would be civil i know i would have a heart attack and probably move out on the spot.
However ive lived with a few people and he is by the far the easiest best tenant ever so my old feelings are being a nuisance, and i dont let myself ever think about it, but every time he comes home i stop breathing trying to hear that hes definetely alone until i can breathe again.
Is this really bad? Other than this, i’m not a bunny boiler or neurotic or jealous type of girl, never was even as a gf, so thats why im half laughing at this but its bothering me though.
I mean my heart nearly stops if i think he has someone else in his room even though he never does anyway. I can’t go out with him, he has no romantic feelings for me at all thats why i broke up with him. He was horrible in the end and i was devastated for months but every day i missed him badly, not as a boyfriend, but i missed his company as a best friend, and thats why i thought living together would be ok, i thought theres no way i’ll be stupid enough to fall for him again when i do not want him as a b/f.
I just never want to know, see or hear him with another girl.. thats all….
On the other hand, he wouldn’t blink if i brought a man back one night, but i wouldnt do it though with him in the next room.. i couldn’t.

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