It’s been about 9 months since I’ve been with my boyfriend he’s great and treats me the way anyone should be treated. Not to mention he is so gorgeous. Which makes me wonder sometimes why he’s with me when I have nothing more than average looks. Anyways…. I love him very much and he tells me the same everyday. But there are times where I feel like there is something wrong. I don’t know why but I sometimes get the feeling that he would leave me for someone else. I’ve told him a few times before that if he were to leave me it would be for someone better. And when I say better I mean physically and someone who has a better lifestyle than I do, because I grew up in a semi-impoverished background. And I feel like if I lose him that I wouldn’t be able to love again because I went from such a horrible relationship to a great one and it would just hurt me so much. I don’t know what to do and I know if I keep feeling like this that he will leave me. How can I supress this.
Another thing is I wanted to get a job and at the time we were living in separate dormitories in different locations. And I told him I wanted a job and he said there would be no point of him going to the dorms I was at. And now he is out looking for a job which leaves me to be confused. I know if he gets a job he’s never gonna have time for me or anything. And that doesn’t help me any. I’m just so confused and helpless in this.

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Three months ago, my wife and I got married. We were doing just fine. Until she started stripping. I wasn’t ok with it, but she started doing it with a friend. I was never ok with it, but I accepted it because I love my wife more than anything in this world. And it was her decision. But a little over two weeks ago, she had a break down after telling her dad what she was doing. She started blaming me for her stripping because of where I work. I dont make enough money where I work to comfortably support us. Which is why she started stripping. Before we got married, I had promised her I’d get a new job. But I kept putting it off. I had every intention of getting a new job, but I just put it off. And that happened a couple of times. This time, she left. She is staying at a friends house and has been ever since. Ive changed the way I do things. I use to be lazy, but Ive changed that. Im taking resposibility and doing things that I should have done a long time ago. I sold my truck, so 300$ a month goes back into our pockets. Ive been constantly been looking for a job. Got a couple different options coming up. one possibly with the school system. She wont come home because she is afraid I’ll quit searching for a job. And she doesnt trust me when I tell her that I promise to do everything I say im going to do. But after what Ive done, can you blame her? Saturday, she talked to me and said, she wanted an Anullment. But a couple hours later, she tells me that she is going to hold off on the anullement because she loves me. And I know she does. She said dont call or txt her. She’ll call me. She called me after 3 days. Today. She said she was calling to hear my voice and to see how the job search was going. ive been looking for a Fulltime job that pays more than minimum wage for over 2 weeks now. Its hard to find somthing like that. And believe me, ive been looking as hard as I can. I have a few connections and maybe able to get a job with the School System here as a Custodial/Maintanence engineer. I guess you could say, Janitor. Im in college but they are all online classes. Thank god. But i cant convince her to come home and let me show her how much ive changed. And im afraid that if I cant get this job fast, she’ll get tired and leave for good. I love my wife. I know ive made some mistakes in the past. But I am human. And i want to make up for all that. But How can I show her if she isnt home and I cant call her? Any suggestions?

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