GF of 15 years has struggled with her feelings over the last year. She constantly has feelings of not being in control of her own life. She wants desperately to be able to stand on her own 2 feet and feel like she’s worth something. She wants to better herself before she feels like she can commit to any relationship with anyone. The only way she feels she can accomplish this is to separate from me for a time so that she can get herself together. She says that given time to get herself together and feel in control, she’d be ready to love again like I need her to. Right now, I’m on a emotional yo-yo with her. I feel the love from her for a time, then it disappears and the cycle repeats like that. She feels guilty for accepting the love I give her and I believe that it might be because she doesn’t feel like she’s worth the trouble or effort. It hurts like hell to hear that because she’s everything to me. I’m certain that there’s no one else.
She wants to go back to school, wants to start to re-organize her life and find her self worth again. She used to go to church pretty religiously but that has fallen off completely. I can see that she’s lost and it breaks my heart as much as breaking our family apart is doing. I’m very selfish when it comes to her. I feel like the woman I love IS in there somewhere, but every time she starts to come out, she gets overwhelmed again. She does have some mental roadblocks, and is in therapy for a possible bi-polar disorder. She doesn’t want a time frame for this to work out. I’m hoping that the time away will reaffirm our love in each other and the help that she needs. Is it truly over or is there hope for us?
Tags: bi polar disorder, Control, feelings, gf, heart, hell, love, M 111, relationship, roadblocks, self worth, time frame, worth the trouble, yo yo
Hubby works a lot & then he goes to a garage to work on cars almost every nite. I have tlkd to him about this b4 and he blames me for everything. Tells me the kids dont like him b/c of me, we are broke b/c of me, our marriage sux b/c of me, I feel that sometimes I am at the point to where there is nothing he can do to make it btr, but I dont want to give up on us either. He use to be so attentive to me and kids and now there is nothing. We went thru some bad times last sumr, he wldnt come home until 4-5 in the a.m. or not at all, and of course nothing wld be going on with him, now he tells me to get over it and I am having a hard time with that. I am scared to be myself around him for some reason. I have always been loyal to him, sure I have done dumb things I am not perfect, but living everyday knowing that someone blames you for everything and I mean everything breaks u down and its hard to deal with. I dont want a divorce but what can I do? I am just scared & hurt. Advice??
Tags: amp, b4, btr, cars, divorce, dumb things, hard time, hubby, M 111, marriage, Rope
i have a 95 ford taurus and i got in 2 accidents and was kicked off my insurance and now i’m on another insurance and it’s higher. i understand that when you get a newer nicer car then your insurance goes up. but what about if you get a really safe car like the honda civic? would it double my insurance rate or anything really bad like that? thank you!
Tags: accidents, ford, ford taurus, honda, honda civic, Honda Civic Ex, Honda Ex, insurance, insurance rate, Lot, M 111, safe car
I was in a long distance relation for quite a while, but yes we did get the chance to be together in person. We were hopelessly in love, but then one day he said he didn’t love me anymore and told me that a long distance relationship was just too hard.
I’m over him now, but I sometimes wonder what would happen if we met again. I plan to do some travelling in a year, and I’m debating whether or not I should pay him a visit. It could end up being the best thing I’ll ever do for myself, or it could end up being a waste of time and money. Do you think it would be worth it to go see an old love just to see if something happens between us again?
I know I could love him again, and I’m pretty sure he could too, even though he may ignore his feelings when the time comes.
Tags: Distance Relationship, falling in love, feelings, long distance relationship, love, M 111, Met, money, Time And Money, Waste Of Time
it’s a sad poem i guess and i wrote it after this guy dumped me and i felt really depressed.but i’m over it now and i jsut want to see what people think?
here it is……………………..
FADING MEMORIES by me
memories that fade away
like the sunset
into the horizen….
fading memories
dying memories
sad memories
when they used to be glad
lonely memories
lonseme memories
romantic memories
cherished ….
thoughtful notes
sweet long letters
soulclose conversations
and unfufilled dreams
perfect compliments
perfect love
or as if it meant or seemed that way
but it’s all unreal
because memories fade
like dust in the wind
like sand on a grave
and all turns dark
unhappy and lifeless
when all u have is memories
to hold onto
but that slip away
Tags: compliments, conversations, dreams, dust in the wind, fading memories, Guess, long letters, love, love poem, M 111, Perfect Love, romantic memories, sad memories, sad poem, sunset, thoughtful notes
