Some four years ago my love of 11 years cheated on me. She says it happened only once. She has a mental disorder and sometimes has to be hospitalized to get her meds adjusted so she can be well. Her cheating happened during one of these episodes. I have vowed to care for her for my whole life, but I can’t seem to love her as I once did. I tried for four years and we have had counseling. I trust her with everything, except my heart. I hurt inside so much of the time. I have none to give and get support from, to help me deal with this. My parents are dead and my brothers are asses. I have friends but they have a love for her which I would never want to damage by talking about this to them.
I just wish so very much that I can find away to be in love with her again. She was my love so much so that other woman even beautiful women were just people. I only had eyes for her and my heart was very happy. Now I see other woman and I wish at times that my love and I were not together. I Love Her

Tags: 11 years, asses, Beautiful Women, counseling, Fall In Love, heart, love, meds, mental disorder, parents, Whole Life

2 weeks before my wedding my husband told me he didn’t want to marry me (had to go through with it cause of the $$ and people involved). I have went through emotional abuse, drinking, physical violence, controlling issues, and sexual issues with this man. There was absolutely nothing right in our relationship. I finally decided I wanted a divorce and I walked out. Had finally gotten enough self esteem that I didn’t need him and that I could make it on my own. I have a good job and can financially support myself. For temporary – I went to my parents house to live and my dad has cirrohsis…and after all he has been through I came home to him and my mom fighting because he was drinking again. I moved out young because of this problem and I ran from it again because I didn’t want to be there so I went back to my husband. I don’t love my husband at all. But he promised that he would start taking meds and change the way he treated me. Things have changed a little but I still have so much hatred built up for him for the things he has done to me. I met a guy on a work trip back a few months ago and we talk every now and then. We both really like each other but he lives pretty far from me. I get butterflies when I think about talkin to him. I fell out of love with my husband so long ago because he never treated me like he cared one bit and now I feel so stupid for sittin around and letting it happen. I want my life back! I am 25 yrs old and a really good person. I just want to be happy. My husband is trying to manipulate me into staying and saying I can fall back into love with him. I have been goin to therapy to try to get all this figured out but personal experience or opinions would be appreciated.

Tags: butterflies, Cirrohsis, dad, divorce, emotional abuse, good job, good person, hatred, job, love, meds, mom, parents, personal experience, physical violence, relationship, self esteem, sexual issues, work trip

My husband’s family believes he was fine until he met me, and I am starting to believe it as well and I cannot live with myself if I did. It wasn’t until a friend of his got involved that his family began to doubt me and now they have convinced him he doesn’t want anything to do with me. The only people he has left in his immediate family are his brothers and uncle neither live here. I am in nursing school and understand the disease process but did not know he was bipolar until a recent diagnosis so we argued.Now I know what he has and he is very delusional and has been ordered to commitment up to ninety days. Everyone is against me, his doctors never talked to me, I had medical power of attorney and he revoked it verbally while in the hospital. Theses doctors didn’t put him on Lithium until last week almost a month after I had pleaded with them to do so. They had him taking 800mg of seroquel once a day and cymbalta and ambien.I did some research and when his brother talked to the doctor they realized their mistake and changed his meds and the dosage from 800 to 300.Then they finally listened to me about putting him on Lithium. Of course his friends have convince him the problem is not that he has bipolar but our marriage. Yes, we have had our share of problems but looking back on things maybe it was because I was disagreeing with him during a manic phase where I know I cannot win that argument. Or before I knew he was bipolar maybe it was because I saw him spending everything he had on drums, ebay etc. What I want to know is from someone who has gone through this what can I do other than hire an attorney and fight like hell for him or leave. I want to save this and will take on the daily tasks of caring for him but I feel it is too late because he will not talk to me and his family blames me. I tried to get guardianship over him but after his "friend" got involved they sent emails to my attorney saying I was out to get him. I guess the errot with the meds, paying all of his bills, and not running away don’t count for anything. They actually think it is stress and the sad part is, since he is taking his meds in the hospital, and staying away from me, the medication is beginning to work…and they attribute his recovery with me not being there…What do I do? Thank you

Tags: ambien, Bipolar, cymbalta, diagnosis, doctors, drums, ebay, hell, immediate family, lithium, manic phase, marriage, medical power of attorney, meds, mistake, ninety days, nursing school, power of attorney, seroquel, theses