My boyfriend and I were together for about 10 months. I broke up with him 3 weeks ago. I didn’t want to, but he stopped talking to me so much. He would text me about once every week for the past month. He lives 4 hours away and hasn’t come to see me in 3 months because we have both been busy. However, he told me he would come see me 2 months ago and we made plans. He didn’t come. Two days before he was supposed to come he tells me that he doesn’t have the money because he just bought a “crotch rocket.” I was upset with him at first but I just let it slide. Then we made plans for the next month. One week before he was supposed to come, he tells me he can’t because he is busy. Once again, I am disappointed. I can’t go up and see him because I don’t have a car (I’m in college and he is a few years older). Then, he stops talking to me, as I mentioned earlier. I’m so in love with him so I didn’t want to give up on him but I wondered “what is going on?” I start thinking that maybe he’s found someone else or he just doesn’t want me anymore, or something like that. So, eventually I just break up with him because he kept telling me “I’ll come see you. I’ll talk to you more….” but would never do it. I didn’t even get an explanation. A week goes by and he doesn’t try to talk to me at all.
I then met a guy that I was kind of attracted to but he wasn’t the kind of guy I would want to date seriously. I was thinking that my ex and I were done for good. So, I had sex with the new guy twice. I did it because I was extremely hurt about the breakup and I thought it would help me get over my ex (it was not a smart thing to do, but I have learned my lesson to not have sex so soon after a breakup; I think everyone has to experience things before they learn). Three weeks after the breakup, my ex texts me. He says how sorry he is for everything and that he’s been having emotional problems because his grandfather was in the hospital and his aunt just found out that she has less than a year to live. I completely understood and asked if he would keep talking to me on a more regular basis, but we didn’t get back together. He asked if I had been doing things with other guys and I said no. I shouldn’t have lied though. Like 3 days later I told him that I actually had been with another guy. He got really upset and acted like I cheated on him. I knew it would hurt him but I explained how I had been feeling about him. He didn’t forgive me and told me “whatever, I hope you enjoyed it.”
So he asked me to leave him alone, and I have. I want him back though. I would never cheat on him if we were dating and I’ll never do something like that again. I honestly feel like I want to be with him for the rest of my life, so I don’t want us to be ruined forever. It makes it so difficult because we live far apart. What should I do or say to make him forgive me?

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