(My boyfriend & I broke up yesterday)
Okay, so I know this may be a long read but I feel its crucial to add a little detail to the story for you to base your decision.
First of all, I had been with this man (who is almost 21 years old now) for 2 and a half years. We had broken up once before for 2 months the same time last year but then we both decided we were both still very in love and wanted to be together.
The reason for the break up was because we were going through a rough patch. Both of us were not changing. However, the things in our lives were. We both got excepted into Uni (part time). He works full time and I work part time, he wants to buy a house this year and is really serious about his future career and study.
His reason for the break up was because he feels that he may not be able to commit to our relationship 100% with everything else going on in his life (and I honestly think, that’s a lame excuse!) He says he doesn’t feel “in love” with me anymore. This is because I haven’t been myself lately and I haven’t been as happy as I usually am. I think I was being too dependant on him to make me happy and he just couldn’t take that anymore. On the other hand, he says he “still loves me” but not in the girlfriend way at the moment. He cares about me so much and says he still wants to be “apart of my life” and he actually still wants for us to talk & email each other. I had told him that, I can only be in his life as his girlfriend or nothing at all (as that is just too hard on me).
Aside from that, I had spoken to his Mum and she said that his aunty had come over 4 days ago (who he had never seen) and he brought out all these photos he had of both of us and he showed her, introducing me as his girlfriend. She said “well, she’s very attractive” and he said “yeah, she’s beautiful”. Now, is it just me.. Or what’s up with that?!
We were on a weeks break before we broke up to clear the air and I was constantly calling (which I know I shouldn’t have but couldn’t resist) which I think pushed him away even further. The purpose of the break was to see if he still wanted to be with me or not. He said that he was still so “confused”. And we broke up I think… basically.. So I’d just leave him alone for a while but he has me convinced that we wont ever get back together. Is he still confused about what he wants? Is he using “his excuse for this break up” as an excuse to push me away for a little while??
We broke up yesterday and I have not spoken to him since. I plan on not talking to him for 2 weeks because I want him to miss me and remember what it’s like having me around. I know deep in my heart that he will miss me & question if breaking up was the right decision. But is that enough for him to call me?
There is something so special about him that makes me want more!
PS: It was my birthday last Sunday and the week before he had spent 5 hours shopping for a present for me. If he really had no feelings for me, why would he bother?
PPS: BREAKING NEWS: MUST READ: He has just sent me a message which reads "Hey hope your feeling better today. Just though id check up on ya lol" …….. This is not good! (By the way, I’m replying)
I mean… not replying *****
Tags: amp, aunty, full time, girlfriend, half years, lame excuse, love, part time, photos, Reason, relationship, rough patch
