I dont get it…we went out for over two years. It was a pretty wild roller coaster ride. Two pregnancies, with two misscarriages. Tons of fights and breakups. When things were good there was nothing better, we truly do care for each other. We are pretty much alike, both stubborn and easily angered. I never cared or loved another girl, she was my first. But when things were bad they were terrible. We put each other thru hell for stupid stuff and I know we both regret it. We have tried parting ways and not talking but it doesnt last. Maybe a week or two, but we cant seem to let each other go. I just want to be happy….but I feel like I cant be happy with her and I’m miserable I can’t have her. We have one of them relationships people dont understand unless they had one. everyone says we need to let go and all but its hard when you feel so strongly for someone. I dont want to be miserable forever, I just want to be happy. With or without her. Anyone know what I’m going thru. Advice???
Its not my first relationship, but the first girl i ever actually loved.

Tags: breakups, hell, misscarriages, parting ways, pregnancies, relationship, relationships, roller coaster, Roller Coaster Ride, stupid stuff