heres the thing.
I dated a guy for a year and a half. when I went to college in the same city (he was a senior in hs) I broke up with him because I felt as if I was missing some of the experience. I still loved him. He still loved me, so it wasn’t actually the right time for a break up. Therefore this led to a lot of bad things.
For a while I completely pushed him out of my life. I was pretending to not need him. But I did. And i finally gave in. He was there for me. We would act like we were dating when together, just laying in bed. I’ve never felt so comfortable with anyone else. I miss that. We would hook up as in make out occasionally. That was it. No one knew. I knew I wasn’t going to get back with him [yet], and ultimately that made him feel used. He tried to push me away. He started moving on.
I didn’t. He started talking with another girl. But before they were dating we went to dinner where we were very flirtatious. He ended up actually having sex in his car afterwards. (Note this is April, we broke up in September. This was the first time we had had sex since August). I had confided in him my feelings. How I was finally being honest to myself and him, and that I still loved him. He knew how I felt. To me he wasn’t the guy who could have casual sex, so it would have to mean something to him if he had sex with me. Well that was friday night. We had it two more times on Sunday. It was great. I wanted him to feel the connection. I wanted to feel it to. It was there. Monday he said we couldnt do that again. He said some of the most hurtful things ever. But thats what he does, what we both do. We get too mad and say way too much just to hurt one another. Tuesday he started dating her. Its been a month now. I hate myself. I hate life. I’ve considered suicide. I have pushed everyone else in my life away. I don’t care about anything. I cry everyday, but I have been for months. I don’t do anything. I hate everything. He was what held me together. I lost the person I felt most comfortable with. I lost my best friend. He won’t talk to me. He hates me. He says I am crazy. I am. I just don’t know where my sanity is. I feel so helpless. I don’t want him back as a boyfriend, just a friend. I have promised myself I will love myself before I love another boy, but I don’t see myself loving myself ever. I hate myself. And I can’t hate him

sorry i had to get this out there and vent.

Tags: casual sex, feelings, friday night, Getting Over An Ex, having sex, Hook, hs, right time, suicide

last period may 5 2009 ended may 9
next period after 30 days
1st day of menstruation june 10 2009
last day of menstruation june 14 2009
we made love on june 20 and 21
we made love again on june 27
when is the right time to make love again? can she be pregnant on the day we made love help me thanx

Tags: june 14, june 27, last period, love, Love Help, right time

Before I get started…here is just a slight piece background info on myself: I’m currently 16 years old..going on 17 in a couple of months. (just for you to know so youll know that i’m living the typical teenage life in this issue I have…)

Okay…so here it goes. I’ve liked this kid for 3 years. Truth is….he just likes me as a friend…and we’re not the type of friends who hangout on a regular basis. He is graduating HS in a few weeks, and he’s going off to college. We were NEVER together…but we hooked up a couple of times and we would talk sometimes. I’ve known him for years….he’s my friends brother and she knows that i like him. So like I was saying….he just likes me as a friend and nothing more…he doesnt want a relationship and he didnt think it would ever work. I can see how it wouldnt work for numerous reasons….(different friend groups, im still in HS he is going to college, etc.) And…for the most part…..he only liked me for what i have….which really sucks…and it hurt..but to be honest….we’re still friends and im happy because of that. (btw we live right near eachother). Also… I’m also a very spiritual person when it comes to having faith in God. Now I don’t go to church every sunday when i should….but I keep the faith outside of church. I sometimes I have a talk with God about how i feel and about my general life sometimes..and everynight I always take about 2 minutes before I go to sleep and pray, I pray about my friends, family and this boy who i am fond of. I’ve also asked God to help me in situations and which he has…but this one with this boy….just hasnt really changed. And there is always a reason for everything right? I’m thinking that there is a reason for why were not going to be together. It’s prob. for the good, and or it’s just not the right time yet… So…now i’m here tonight just writing a sad love poem for how i’ve come to realization that this will never be..between this kid and I..(as for right now..and things can change down the road later on tho..) and that i love him so much that i’m going to give up on him because I know it will be better for both of us. So…..now the question i am asking…is….anyone know any good songs that pretty much describes the situation i’m in….and or for the mood?

All answers are greatly appreciated….but please no rude comments

Tags: 3 years, background info, brother, btw, faith in god, friends family, going to college, good songs, having faith in god, realization, relationship, right time, sad love poem, sleep, spiritual person, talk with god, teenage life, truth

Well a few days ago i had to break up with my boy friend because he was cheating on me and I couldnt believe it and the fact that he told me. I really was upset and it is taking me thoughts that i want to get over him but i just cant. I love him with all my heart and i would want to do anything for him as we grow older. He has a gf wich he says he doesnt like, and i dnt want to have any problems between me and her. Im only 13 bt i want to learn as a young lady of how to get over relationships and through them. I have many flashbacks about him and i dream about him. Every now and then i want to text him but im afraid he wont text back. Im waiting for the right time to ask him back out and tell him how much i miss him and my REAL EMOTiONS ABOUt HiM AND LOVE HiM AS ME….Please help me out

Tags: boy friend, few days, flashbacks, gf, heart, Last Kiss, Mariah Carey, real emotions, relationships, right time, Wich, young lady

my exboyfriend and i ended things about a month ago, mainly because he liked another girl. it now looks as if they will never become anything more then just friends.(he is going to homecoming with her though). I see him in the hallways at least twice a day, and eveytime we’ll smile or say hi.. but sometimes i’ll just walk right past him and not even look at him. (beacause sometimes i think its akward; expecially if im walking with one of my guy friends). It seems like the right time to try to make things better and i’d really like to go back out with him.. and at least start talking again.. How can i get him to want me back? what should i do?? i need advise!

Tags: Ex Boyfriend, exboyfriend, expecially, guy friends, hallways, homecoming, just friends, right time