I been dating this guy over 6 months online…i used to spend all day with him on msn video calls etc but one day i really got crazy for him and he loved me and i convinced my parents to go to germany (im from romania) so i can meet him in real life … he is 16 and im 15 and i got to met him we spent a month together and i had my … "1st time" with him after i had to go back home … we kept on talking for like 7 months and i was supposed to meet him again this summer but…he started to lie and i …got pissed off once and i messed up everything …. i pushed him away and that was one of the biggest mistakes i think i could ever do cause he was the only one who made me so happy who made me feel great and the only one that understood me … and he was hurt but he got over me so fast and after some days i tried to apologize but …he was already dating someone else and honestly that really got me down and i regretted what i have done so much …i became suicidal he was still my friend…but it was a huge difference …than he changed he became colder and distant and tried to push me away and he started to lie a lot and i just cant forget him even thought its been almost 4 months from that i miss him so much and i still love him even thought he hurt me and lie to me and pushed me away i want him back but now he doesn’t even talk to me he ignores me and made it such so i cant get to him anyway … i deadly miss him im getting in depression again i love him so much still … i didn’t eat for 3 days now and couldn’t sleep again just like the time after i broke up with him….i don’t want to get suicidal again because my family needs me but i cant go on like this and i have tried to replace him but its so impossible to be with someone else when all i do is think of him …please help me =(

Tags: 4 months, 7 months, broken heart, depression, germany, parents, quot, romania, sleep