I have been in an online relationship for 1.5 yrs. Known him for 2 yrs. I never thought I could fall in love with anyone online, nor was I even looking for love when I found it. We talked every single day for the last 1.5 yrs at least 4 hrs a day during the week & he called me before work & at his lunch breaks every day. Every weekend we spent at least 12 hrs a day together on the phone, & online & we played a lot of online euchre as partners. We both were having financial problems that lead for us not being able to be together in person at this point & time. I told my kids about him & I talked to them everyday about him. His finacial problems have worsened & now he is saying that he wants to end this & he has become very bitter towards me. I’m having a hard time moving on because I want to at least meet him. I need closure. I want to see the person I had a relationship with for the last 2 yrs. Is that so much to ask for? He said NO to meeting now. He doesnt understand why I need that
My kids are grown and over the age of 18. So my kids arent even a factor.
I know that he still loves me and he still tells me that he still does. He is having very bad finanical problems. He has lost several things here lately due to lack of money and hard times and he says that he isnt able to give me the life that I need and that I say now money dont matter, but he things in time it will and he doesnt know at this point and time where his finanical status is going to take him and he thinks that I deserve better. I know its not because of him wanting someone else or having someone else. I know he loves me. We spent every spare min that either of us had other then sleep and work. Never once did we not even spend all weekend talking other then sleeping. Not one day in those 2 yrs did we not. I know he loves me. It is finanical and I know that for a fact that he is having big time finanical problems right now.
If it were because I knew he didnt love me and wanted to be with someone else. Then I could walk away with no problem what so ever, but I know that isnt the case.
Tabitha I was thinking the same thing about the harsh responses on some. Thank u for u response. I agree with many parts. I’m hurt because I invested so much time into this relationship. 2 yrs is a long time. I guess now were all false hopes. All my fault I know. I should know better…but it still hurts and I still love him. He is having finanical problems right now. I seen it with my own 2 eyes. We had & still have each others accounts info and passwords. He does work ft & has a good job, but fell behind. he does drive over an hour one way from work & with gas prices he is spending 200.00 a week in gas. I did offer to help him & he said no. He didnt want my money. He is very old fashion and he doesnt believe in someone helping him out. He is way subborn. I guess like me. I just dont feel like two people that really love each other, that money should not be an issue to end a relationship. I know he hasnt lost interest in me. If so he would cut all ties with me. Things werent bad
Dayummadeulook..I agree..I am having a hard time letting go. I invested 2 yrs of my life with this man. I know it is live and learn, but it doesnt mean that it still doesnt hurt.
Pauly I’m not talking about falling in love with several different people like you did over a few years. I devoted all 2 yrs to him and he did the same for me. Most of our time wasnt even on the computer it was on the phone. We spent every min of our spare time together. I have a 360 page on my profile he is also on that. We both have had the same friends for 2 yrs. They are like our family. They love us both. I will post a sample of one of his letters to me and show you the bond that I was lead to beleive that we had.
This is one of thousands of letters that he sent to me………..
Yes Babygirl you have told me and I love hearing it no matter how many times you say it Sweetheart! You never ever let me go without making sure you tell me or show me that not only do you love me very much but that you are thinking of me. You are right Sweetheart, we have been through a lot and we have an exstremely strong bond between us that just grows and continually gets stronger day after day. I have always considered my life blessed to have you as part of it. To have met you and captured your attention enough for you to take notice of me enough to make the effort to get to know me was the best thing to ever happen in my life. It is one of those very small moments in life that if it had not happened, EVERYTHING after that would have been different. I am so glad you looked past the 1st appearances and spent that time getting to know me. We fit together so well because w feel the same for one another.
continued from one of the letters he sent from above…..
I am yours Baby heart and soul!
What I feel for you Princess is from deep within me. It is more than just friendship, more than just lust. It is a feeling of complete want for your company, and satisfaction of being with you. It is total desire for your touch and need to have you just besid me, holding my hand for no other reason than to feel your presence. We have spent many a memorable night together, hours on end, sometimes more than 12 at a time. We have loved, laughed, fought, cried, just like you say and for me just as it is for you, it is always hard to say goodbye. I don’t even like the word lol. I miss you all the time Baby, and every minute we are not together you are in my thoughts. That is the honest truth, I don’t mean every few minutes or hour I think of you, I mean I think of you, see your face, wonder what you are doing etc.. every minute no matter what else I am doing.
continued from one of the letters he sent from above…..
I always have a spectacular time in your company. I always find myself longing for your companionship when we aren’t together. "I don’t know what I’d do if I lost you Cause I’ve been without you and I know how it feels." You are right Princess, "There is nothing in this world that feels better then to love someone with all your heart and to be loved in return the same way as you love them." You taught me that, you showed me what real deep caring love is and should be. You are the one that brought that deep feeling and want for you out in me and for that I thank you Babygirl! You are the best single thing in my life whether we are talking about the most important person, or the most important thing that has ever happened to me. You Princess are what I want to wake up for everyday and who I want to wake up with the rest of my life. I love you Sweetheart very much and from deep within my being. I will always love you that way
Dayummadeulook..no you took that wrong. I never said anything about money to see me…I said he didnt want me to bail him out with his finanicalproblems. Not sure where you got that at.
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