So about a year ago I went to Africa to visit my family for the summer. And there I met the most incredible guy, and I reeeally liked him but never thought to seriously of it at first because long distance relationship wasn’t even an option in mind. But after he took me on a string of dates I really started to fall in love. He was so sweet and always looked after me….but eventually the time came for me to head back to the u.s. We kept talkin but it was hard. He asked me to marry him but i told him no because i felt it was too early, and that I was too young to make such a serious commitment (i’m 21 now, 20 at the time). Also i was getting alot of pressure from family and friends to move on because of the distance and the fact that i shudnt just up and marry the first guy i dated. So we kept breaking up and getting back together. I went to visit him again for christmas and things were just as if i had never left…But as soon as I came back home the communication had slowed. I was really upset and decided to just break things off for good (cuz i felt like i was young and wasting my life after one guy)….Fast forward two months, I really started to miss him. He seemed like wat every body had to say didn’t matter anymore cuz all i thought about was him, I didn’t care about the other guys taht liked me. At first he was really hesistant to talk to me ( i thought b/c i had hurt him) but he said it was becuz during our break he had slept with his ex and got her pregnant…
This Devastated ME!!! I cried for nights asking God why. Blaming myself more than anything. He treated me like a queen, with unconditional love that no other man has ever shown me, and was my first love. Now it seems like no other man can compare. I still cry myself to sleep thinking about him sumtimes and wishing somehow things could be the way they were…I’ve never been so close to another human being in my life. And it sucks cuz he’s even met my family which is a big deal. And even tho we kept taking breaks I always thought we wud end up together somehow…
Now I’m heartbroken and wonder if I’ll ever find such Love like that again??? Help
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