we’ve been together for several years, he got mad bc i went out of town with my friend who is a girl.. i saw an ex from awhile back at a pool hall.. he asked about the guy i was going out with (it was the same guy i left him for) i told him the truth..

my bf told me he needs time off bc he is mad that i saw him and was around him..(they basically don’t like each other and want to fight) he said wait basically a couple months. he also said i want to see what you do without me and see if you hurt me again.

well i want to show him that I’m still faithful cause I’ve never cheated on him before.. he is the love of my life. i also want to show what he is missing now that he left.. i want to make him jealous but i don’t want to be all on someone else to get his attention (you know what i mean?) don’t get me wrong i have a rocking bod but i want to have better skin, better wardrobe, .. I just want to show him what he is missing now that he is gone & so he will come back to me soon

BTW: he is older than me, no little boys, no teen boys. he is in his late 20′s.
(so none if the little kid advise, ya know what i mean?)

thanks for your support & i hope y’all can help me out!! ;]

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There is this boy that I swear I am in love with. The problem is, I lie to him a lot, and I think its so I can make him pay attention to me. The problem is, now its coming back to bite me. See, he got jumped a few nights ago and he’s trying to find out who did it. Today, I was trying to see if he would defend me, so I texted him from my phone pretending to be my ex boyfriend, and going on about how he makes me cry and what not. Now he thinks that my ex has something to do with it, and he’s having him investigated by the police. I don’t want to admit to him that I lied, because I might lose him, but I don’t know what will happen when my ex denies sending those texts from my phone, and I’m in between them. What do I do??

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we started dating in 2007.I got preg in 2008.I had the baby in 2008.I moved in with him 1 month before the baby was born.Xmas Eve of 2008 we got engaged.In June of 2010 we got married.when the baby was 2 months old, I was on his computer.I found a chat between him and some girl.I confronted him about it and he denied it.A couple days later he finally told me that truth and said that he was sorry.I forgave him. I understand that nobody is perfect If I even try to talk to my husband, before I can even say the first two words of the sentence/question he looks at me and says "Shhhh",I’m not in the mood to hear you right now.I can’t even have a convo with him because he never has time for me.The last time he changed a diaper was about 5 months ago and he only done it because his parents was right there. he wants me to take care of the baby, take care of him,(I don’t mind cooking for him and washing his clothes for him) but he wants me to and bring it to him in bed everyday, find his wallet,etc because he can’t keep up with anything.On top of all of that he expects me to keep everything clean.I don’t even feel like a wife, I feel like "the person that took his mom’s place". I don’t expect him to come home from his job (security guard) and clean and take care of the baby all day.I would just like 15-30 minutes to myself every once in a while.Once in a blue moon he will call me "beautiful", tell me I’m pretty or that he loves me.He always says that I’m not grown up or that "I need to grow up".He thinks because he has a job, he is grown up.I don’t even feel a spark with us anymore.Sometimes I find myself thinking about a divorce.When I think about a divorce I find myself daydreaming about going out with my friends, just being myself, smiling and having a life again.He doesn’t let me wear make-up, talk to my friends, well have friends for that matter, talk on the phone with any of my old friends from high school, and when I talk to my dad on the phone he rushes me to get off.He gets mad when I go and spend time with my dad.He says he doesnt trust me with our daughter when we go out without him. he doesn’t care if i go anywhere with his family because "its his family".He choses how I dress, who I talk to,and he just told me yesterday that he is putting me on a diet because Im gaining to much weight in such a short amount of time.I’m happy that im with him and were are together but im not happy with our relationship, anytime i have to go to the doctor he cusses me out and puts me down because i wake him and get him out of bed because he has to take me.I dont have a car, we are still living with his parents and we are using their car and everything like that until we can get a house for ourselves.I tried talking to him and letting him know how I feel but he laughs at me and says "oh yeah, i just make you feel so bad, don’t I".He always says that I’m a piece of shit wife and mom he doesnt want me to even be around my dad.sometimes he says that he trusted me but other times he says that he doesnt trust people around me.my dad has done some things to me that should not happen between a daughter and father but I forgave him.my husband doesnt know about all the things that happened there. but like i said nobody is perfect and everybody makes mistakes.i wont let my daughter out of my sight and my husband knows that.im so confused when it comes to him trusting me. when i go to see my dad, i have to fight with my husband, he calls me names, tells me im no good, and when he tells me not to come back,i say okay and when i go to get mine and my daughters toothbrush,he comes up to me and asks me if im staying all night and that I better be back in the house before the night is over.i just cant stand it anymore.even though my husband is in the same house/room with me,i feel like a single mother.sometimes when im out in town i look at other dads/husbands and when i catch myself doing it, i feel so bad.i love my husband and i said those vows for a reason but i dont even feel like im married or dating.i feel like im a mom and somebody that took his moms place.i feel like im in a prison. im really scared because i told my dad that i would go to court with him on tuesday and my husband doesnt want me to go and i know we will be fighting about it. when he gets mad, he will hit me, shove me, do anything to try to get me to do what he says. the day before mothers day(2010), he shoved me around and i had to go to the hospital. they put my arm in a sling and my husband wouldn’t even let me wear it because he didnt want to look bad in front of his parents.Ive been told over and over by people that i need to leave him but i cant.my parents are divorced and i know what the kid(s) go through and i dont want mine going thru any of that. i love him and even if i wanted to 100% I cant because i love him so much. we fight when w

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I am 25 years old and I have been in love with the same boy for over 8 years now. I fell in love at 16 and have never fallen out. He was my first love, first everything, and we were in a relationship for 3 years, then on and off, and everything in between for a couple more years. I still talk to him every once in a while, and since he’s gotten a new girlfriend, I haven’t seen him in months. I cut off all contact with him a few months ago, because it hurt too bad to just be friends, but then I couldn’t stop thinking about him, and decided that I’d rather have him in my life as a friend then not in my life at all.
I thought I had moved on… I was in a serious long relationship from 2007-2009, and even had a child with that person, but we are no longer together. I have dated a few guys in between, but nothing has never compared to my first. I am still, and have always been deeply, deeply in love with my first.
I am having a terrible time coping and dealing with the fact that he is in love with his current girlfriend, who he has talked about marrying. I try to act happy for him, because we are good friends and will always support each other and be happy for one another. I don’t think he still has the same feelings for me as I do for him, so that makes it hard for me to express how I feel about him, and also because he is in a relationship and I feel it would be inappropriate for me to have the "I am still in love with you" talk with him now.
Truth is, I cry myself to sleep every single night over him, and don’t remember the last day I didn’t shed tears over my heartbreak and how much I miss him and long for the past when we were together. I have tried to move on, accept the fact that that was then and this is now, but I can’t. I feel like he has a huge chunk of my heart and I am so incomplete. All I want is him. We have not been together in over 4 years now, just good friends, and I feel like 4 years should be plenty of time for these feelings to die down, but it really feels as though my pain gets worse every day. I don’t know what to do anymore. They say time heals all wounds, but this pain is not going away. Will it ever?

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My boyfriend and I of 2.5 years just broke up, and we’ve been through hell together, divorces, deaths, hospital visits, everything. He started liking another girl, and my brain is ready to move on, but my heart cant seem to let go. I did the breaking, since he had started rumors around school that he was breaking up with me the day after; when i asked him about it, he said it was happening and that i should enjoy my last day with him, so i broke up with him sooner rather than later. The truth is, though, i never wanted to break up with him and i still like him a lot, but i dont trust him. He appeared to have cheated on me, but didnt so i dont fully trust him, and now, hes going after a really easy girl and flaunting it at me!! I’m annoyed at it and wish it would stop! What does this mean? What’s he trying to say? Should I do anything in return to stop the annoying behavior or now? And if so, what should I do?

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